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mentalgymnastics: (Hmmm)

[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-03 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
OH! He will love that so much more than he'll ever admit. Even if it doesn't do anything, he'll give me one of his tsundere insults.

[She takes it and examines it with only a bit of shyness she's feeling poking through. Loki can probably tell she wants to die a little inside seeing and handling her first dildo.

Mostly she's seeing that it's average, proportional, good heft. Akechi will like it and be sorely disappointed when it does something disastrous. But really, what else does he expect from a Loki themed dildo? The onus is really on him.
]

I have a few ideas. Either in person myself or anonymously. Either way, I think Senpai will have fun. I'm thinking after the next fic when I don't write about BenRoro. Allow him some healing before I do more.

[She pauses and then looks at Loki with wide eyes.] I do love him! Like dearly as a friend, I just... think he could use some sibling energy to soften the shell he has around himself.

[A pause.]

And a little chaos is always fun.
Edited 2025-04-03 02:16 (UTC)
mentalgymnastics: (teehee by RabbettSie)

[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-09 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
Thank you, I will then!

[Placing the dildo in her bag, she secures the flap before looking at Loki again for a long moment. She wonders what it's like to be a god, to be powerful like that. To be beautiful and acceptingly chaotic, they seem so otherworldly and ethereal. What she and the others must seem like to them. Maybe they are above everyone but...

Loki not only likes her stupid bad writing, but even allows her to write about them. It makes her expression soften into something fond and warm. Maybe treating Loki like they are above everyone else is making them feel other? So Sumire decides not to.
]

I don't see why he treats you as above the rest of us, you share a room with Kitagawa-kun of all people and I bet you're no better than Akechi-san is at braiding hair.

[A tease, good natured.]
mentalgymnastics: (Hmmm)

[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-12 11:18 pm (UTC)(link)
Hmm, I don't know. Akechi-kun is pretty good at braiding hair, he might give you a run for your title.

[She giggles, clearly poking fun. Akechi is middling at braiding hair. But then she gives Loki a curious look, as if trying to decern something about them but clearly not too hard since they are an enigma even to the people have known them for years.]

Are you really a god? Or are you believed to be a god by people who were lesser in power and age? [A pause.] It's just, I knew a man who thought himself able to shape the world like a benevolent god, but he wasn't even if he had the abilities to back up his claim.
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[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-13 12:55 pm (UTC)(link)
[Sumire listens, but isn't intimidated by any of it if she's honest. Sure that means Loki could very much really be a god, but maybe in her universe they don't exist. Maybe Dr. Maruki was as close to a god as one gets in her world. Maybe there are gods beyond that that she doesn't know about.

It's all very curious to her and she listens intently. She does feel a bit bad about Loki thinking she was claiming they there lying but then-
]

You would absolutely lie to me, you're the god of mischief afterall. [She's not offended, instead she giggles. But she sobers quickly with the topic.]

Still... I suppose those things would make you a god in many ways, yes, I think. At least in my book, but they all sound like amazing stories to me too. Not lies, just stories. Maybe it's because I come from a world with man made gods that I find it all... difficult to believe that someone plain like me could have a conversation with a real god.

[A pause...]

Or maybe it's because one of those men who thought they were a god took everything from me and in my grief, I let him. I wanted him to kill me and make me someone else. And then when I didn't want it anymore, he still tried to force that on me. So, now I find the concept of godhood to be... a crutch for those who think they know better, to toy with other people's lives.
Edited 2025-04-13 13:01 (UTC)
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[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-15 09:58 pm (UTC)(link)
[She listens and by the end she nods, because-]

Everyone is cruel in the end, it's about finding the people in life who cherish you enough to spare you their cruelty really. Even I can be unkind in how I ignore people I don't know. I don't stop to help someone crying out in pain because what if it's a ploy to hurt me?

I know being selfish isn't cruelty, but only to oneself. It's cruel to the other person regardless.

[She pauses and thinks about it.]

Then does it make me a potential god that we not only will overcome him but steal his heart and change his ways entirely? Stop him and force him to see the fault in his actions and choose to change them? Doesn't that in turn make us more powerful than him when we do so?

[She asks sincerely.]

Or is it how I already know I forgive him, even if we fail? I already forgive him now.
mentalgymnastics: (Curious)

[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-28 03:42 am (UTC)(link)
Hm. You're not wrong. I guess then, in a way, you being a god wouldn't matter to me too.

[She looks up in thought. Looking for validation outside of herself is a bad habit she hopes to break one day, so getting called out on it kind of stings, but she's used to bearing the brunt of such call outs now.

One cannot be a professional competitor without critics and people who will be harsh afterall.
]

On another note, how do you feel about Akechi having Loki as one of his personas? Ren has Thor too. I have Vanadis.

[She can't help but wonder how they feel about her having Freyja as a persona.]
mentalgymnastics: (Hmmm)

[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-04-29 07:03 pm (UTC)(link)
Huh.... I never thought of them like that. Hm, I think it's less pokemon and more... her dark materials? I mean, other than Ren and Akechi, the rest of us only get one, though it does evolve, so I suppose.... more like digimon. Only get one, but it's a part of your soul so it's more like a daemon in that way.

[Hm, yeah that's about the best way to explain a persona.]

They are us and not. Like I'm not actually Vanadis, but within my soul are aspects of her that fit and manifest as her. Where she's the closest representation of who I am in that moment.

[She thinks about it for a long moment, then nods.]

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[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-05-01 06:53 pm (UTC)(link)
[She laughs at that, because she thinks it would be funny if she started to do that just because of Vanadis. But she knows they aren't the same person or god or whatever. Hers is just a representation and theirs is the real deal.]

I mean, I could if you really want, if that's missing from your life, I'll step up to the plate.

[For a moment she thinks about it.]

But I don't even actually understand it. I guess because I'm a fighter, I'm strong, but I am someone who loves and guides. How does a persona choose? Because I don't pick it. It... it picked me. So really, in what ways is your mother like me that she would choose me?
Edited 2025-05-01 18:53 (UTC)
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[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-05-07 08:45 pm (UTC)(link)
[Sumire listens with intent, curious about the reality of one universes version of the god her persona is shaped from. It's all really rather interesting, it makes her wonder about a great many things, about herself, about others, about the form of her persona. Really, it's all so beyond her, but whatever she can learn, she's eager to.

Guides too much, huh? Maybe Sumire does that too, with her fics and meddling. Even thinking about it she was already coming up with excuses why it was okay and for their good. Maybe she can relate to that too. Too much of all of this really.
]

Yeah, not to gas myself up, but that feels right. And good, I'm glad she's free and wild now. [Her tone is empathetic, because she understands so much about what it's like to be tied down in a way.]

Well, I think I've taken up enough of your time, thank you, especially for the conversation, it's been very... thought provoking.
mentalgymnastics: (101-pixiv-users-2536)

okay so what's it do? :eyes:

[personal profile] mentalgymnastics 2025-05-18 12:39 am (UTC)(link)
Oh! Yes, thank you. I should go before Kitagawa-san sees me leaving here. That would be an awkward conversation, even with him.... maybe especially with him.

[She smiles and grabs her bag with a hum.]

It was lovely to talk to you.

[With a bow, she slips quietly out the door.]
Edited 2025-05-18 00:40 (UTC)